The Day my Life Changed

How much are you willing to give up? What are you willing to risk? Where are you willing to start?

I never fully understood what sacrifice meant for a long time. And what does opportunity risk actually feel like? Well, it seems what they say is true…. the larger the risk, the larger the reward!

I left South Africa in May last year in pursuit of… discovery. I thought this would be a discovery of the world, but in those 5 months I discovered myself. I am blown away by the confidence that solo travel has created in me. Because it was hard. Really hard. So many emotions, good and bad, the absolute worst and best moments happening simultaneously.

Side Note: Book of the month – Thrive by Arianna Huffington

I have never experienced the peace, happiness and excitement that I feel right now. Yes of course there are still bad days, not bad – more challenging, but I am overall the best I have ever been. This all happened the day I surrendered.

I had been in England for about a month. It was a really hard day – I had recently started a job doing manual labor that seemed simple enough but that was frustrating me because I wasn’t getting it right. I had been crying, fighting, dabbling with the idea of just going back home. It was a lot. I had reached my lowest.

That’s when I had no other option but to surrender. I had been angry with God, fighting with Him, arguing about what I believed I had done for Him and not getting anything back. But I had to stop. I prayed a prayer basically saying – I’m obviously in this exact position because I have something to learn, some way to grow and until I have reached that I can’t be given the next opportunity. I’m willing, I will follow, You lead, I’m done fighting for what I think my path should be, You already know. And thank you for my job.

A month later I got a new job in a social enterprise that still blows my mind. I found a new place in a 2 weeks in my pretty low price range, in the CENTRE of the city, with the BEST flatmates, if you know London, you will understand how hard that is. And 2 months later I was given a promotion in the company, doing everything I have ever dreamed of and more. What’s crazy is, this is just the beginning. I am moving the the spirit, following where I am shown to go, things are opening up for me in a way I could never have ever done by myself. We think we need to be missionaries to work for God but He uses our talents in a way that is beyond our expectations, in a space that’s even better than what you would ordinarily choose.

I haven’t written for a while but felt the necessity in sharing my experience. If any of this resonates with you I would love to open a dialogue individually. I feel like this has been a huge discovery in my journey, more of a discovery than I had ever planned on and I pray for everyone to have their own discoveries and share them with the world.

1 Comment

  • Estelle
    Beautiful Nix. It makes me happy to know you are happy ❤

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